It's March Right Now, But I Thought It Was Still February 29th, 2012

I realize that I am not committed to this blog.  No one reads it, but that's okay because I like having somewhere to rant about stuff where anyone who stumbles across this blog will have no idea what I'm talking about.

Tis okay with me.

So, in three months I have... not done much.  I'm going to Washington though! Woohoo!  I get to visit the land of Americanos for 4 days and possibly go shopping!  I love shopping!  I dislike working, but I like getting paypurrr (paper).  I seriously need to save up. Oh buddha.

I discovered Holden Nowell today.  Oh Holden, what a visually appealing guy.

For the last two or so weeks, I've been in an extremely cranky mood.  I have to be honest with myself.  I'm been downright bitchy, and I still can't figure out why.  I'm so moody, and bipolar.  I'm getting annoyed with people I wouldn't normally get annoyed with.  I don't have a regular happy mood... I must relax.

Since I mention something that bothers me, mostly every post, here's another list, with explanations.
1) Horny grade 9-10 boys. I hate, dislike, really don't like them.  Oh. my. GOADFGOADFGOAOGAOFG.
2) Not so subtle check outs.  ie.  Looking down the hall before a certain person passes by, then checking out said person's derriere after they pass by.  Or, "subtly" nudging their friend to mention that said person is passing by and pretend not to look although you are looking.
3) High school guys in general.  I am not a piece of meat, or here for your visually violating pleasure.  IGNORE ME.
4) My derriere.  Why can't it be normal sized?
5) How my hair gets caught in everything.  I need a haircut, so badly, it's ridiculous.
6) That really, really, annoying person I don't know who keeps on whistling at me.  I don't know why the f they are, but I'd really like to bitch them out.  Also, it's possibly the same kid who today decided to knock on a passing bus window, and whilst touching their chest, stuck out of tongue and winked at us.  Oi vey what has the world come to?


K, bitching, ranting, complaining, is finished.


Gutenbye,
Monica 

2012

Will this year be the year of redemption, where all the crappy moments from 2011 are made up?
I somehow doubt this.  What's probably going to happen is even more sheeeeeeeyit.  Seriously.


I don't do resolutions.  Mostly because I can't ever keep them, and because I always forget about them.  So why bother? 


So I got a new keyboard.  Aw yeah!  And a new mouse.  Je suis le happiness.


I'm suddenly obsessed with nail polish.  I got two from my poopy workplace, and three from Walmart. I especially like this scented nail polish I bought.  One smells like, "ocean breeze", while the other one is "coral papaya". Om nom so nice.
  
I understand why Walmart is so popular.  It's because everything is there, and it's always one sale!!!!  I must look for items there before I decided to buy them from certain other places that are overly priced.  Grr.


I'm attempting to save up.  For the Washington trip, and also for ... the ultimate materialistic item (well not really, but in my case it will be)... Ugg boots.  Not the moccasin kind, the sweater boot kind, with the pretty warm looking wool.  I pine for it (although I've never actually had a pair before or had it taken away).  Why do I want a pair so badly?  I don't know.  I just do, and that's stopped me before, but not now! I'll get them somehow. (No I don't plan on stealing a pair, because that's somewhat impossible).


I'm pretty sure T.O.O. wants me.  Hahahhahahhahahahhahahhahahhahah. Juuuust kidding.  I wish.  Our first form of communication was over that certain f-book thing, and consisted of, "Have we met?".... I'm a little embarrassed to say that I died a little inside.  Not from happiness, but from being so mortified.  I just added him because I don't see him at badminton anymore, so I thought. "Why not, it's not like he'll accept for another 9 months".  Then the next time I log on, hes accepted the friend request and messaged me.  I'm sooooooooooo mortified.  My pride.  My ego.  My dignity.  GONE.  Am I really that forgettable?  Really?  Maybe I should be an annoying talkative prick and won't be forgotten.  Haha just kidding I'm not her.  No offense of course.  I just feel like bitching at someone.  Maybe he said that to start conversation?  I mean, he has like 900+ friend...  PLEASE LET THAT BE TRUE, AND RESPOND TO MY IDIOTIC REPLY.  I won't even say what that is, it humiliates me to think about it.  Positive thoughts.  Prom.  Hes going to take me to his prom.  Yeah right. (I wish)


I keep saying that I'm going to get a haircut and I still manage not to.  I really need a trim at least now.  Goodness gracious great balls of fur.  I don't know where that expression came from. Ignore it.


Good Night, Sleep Tight, Eat Right, and don't become obese!
Love, 
Monica - Version 2012

Thoroughly Pissed Off

Things that PISS ME OFF:


1. School.  Why did I not change my semester so that everything was balanced?  Why the effing hell not?  


2. This GD internet connection that sucks monkey excrement.  Stop disconnecting every fracking fricking flacking five minutes.  Why aren't you working faster? (I'm containing so much rage right now)


3. Work.  Why must you schedule me such annoying shifts, that are completely shitty and no one else wants?  


4. Biology.  GRR.


5. Not getting a lot of sleep.  


MONICA

I Realized...

Again, that I am:
- a chapstick
- floss 
- cardigan
- gum
Loving junkie.  Why must I buy more chapstick when I already have like ... 10, or so.  I don't know, maybe because I don't want to run out of chapstick... and also because it makes my lips oh so soft and wonderful.  Not that it really matters to anyone (I'm assuming), I just like it when my lips aren't dry because it hurts.  Really it does.


Today at work this creepy old guy didn't understand what I said, so I repeated it and he was like, "I need to watch the beautiful young girls like you."  My internal reaction, " D: ".  My thoughts, "Oh my goodness pedophile alert, help Buddha, Lord whoever can save me from rape".  The reality, "*Monica is silent*" I was not violated in any sort of way, and thankfully he left.  Why does this happen to me?  Old people shouldn't try to communicate in a joking manner to younger people (like moi).  I was thoroughly uncomfortable.  Wow I really hate eight hours shifts.  Weird crud like that is bound to occur.


Why does Google keep advertising stuff I look up on the internet?  Like material items I plan to purchase? How do I stop this madness?

In regards to something else, your blog was not really that hard to find... I don't even remember how I came across it, and after reading that one post, what did you expect?  Obviously I wouldn't be happy about your sudden abandonment, and absence.  I was just there huh?  I didn't help you out through your rough times I wasn't even aware of?  Maybe it's because you were never there, and were always with a certain someone and purposely avoided us.  If you didn't want to talk to your other, "ex bestfriend" then why not try to get me alone a tell me about your problems?  I would've tried to help, but I was unaware of anything because you spent all your time with other people.  I really regret taking you for granted and assuming you'd always be there for me.  That's completely false.  I wrote those things at the time because I was so angry and confused.  If someone were to do the same thing to you, and suddenly stop talking to you, how would you feel?  You were my bestfriend, and I honestly thought you were one of the best people I'd ever known, but after ditching me, my feelings changed drastically.  You didn't even care, even when I tried harder to bring you back.  You completely disregarded me, and I hated that.  I don't really hate you as much, but you thoroughly annoy me now.  Don't try to discuss this with me in school, or bring cookies because it's not going to solve anything.  I wonder when you're even going to see this...  Doesn't matter, and neither do you really, anymore.

Monica

An Unimportant Update of My Life & Other Randomness

I realized that I really like post-apocalyptic action romance novels... wtf?
I wear way too much grey and black.
Drake is part of everything now.  I must attend a concert.
I'm an awkward turtle.
My hair is really long, like really really long. Holy pewp.
I have a new cousin! 
I no longer fear work.  I just don't look forward to it.
I spend way too much money whenever I go shopping... which is actually a lot more than before oddly enough (but it's not really that odd).
I realized that I like this font much better than the one I usually use.
I was doing my nails this morning and was using sparkles to put on a nail when it got all over my face when I was trying to blow it off...  idiot.
Sims 3 is not as awesome as Sims 2 because they're not as beautiful.  Maybe someone should mod some skin!  That'd be pretty awesome.
I attempted to make a Sims 2 video for an extra marks creative piece assignment for English class, but I'm not really that skilled in that area so I wrote a poem instead.  I think my teacher liked it because she asked to keep it...
I hate when I'm skipping up the stairs and my toe touches a stair and I think I'm going to die.... how terrible.
I want sushi.  My mother made some yesterday but I ate the rest of it this morning...
I dislike school a lot.


Love and CAKE,
Monica

That Thing Called Attraction

Why does it seem like whenever someone initially likes me, they never show signs of it?
Or it's the complete opposite, and they could try being a little less obvious?
The only reason I know sometimes is because their friends happen to tell me.
Then I'm embarrassed, and slightly flattered.
Or or or, they don't like me at all...
I am confused.


Let's theorize that a person likes me.  Why can't this person just make conversation with me, and try to be friends or something?  Why don't they show pretty obvious signs of liking me, instead of randomly staring at me whenever they think I'm not looking???

Am I too scary or something?  I smile, but sometimes when I'm feeling happy I forget to convey the emotion to my face. 


Am I being sexist too?  Is this some kind of really old female instinct thing that a male must approach me in order for me to feel interest, or know of their interest?  I must be strong.  Empower the strong women that I am!  Or something, I don't know.  I'm kind of shy sometimes though.


Attraction is annoying.  The only kind of attraction that seems useful is in magnets, and sometimes they don't even work well because the attraction decreases if something thick is in the way.

Wow, this just proves that life sucks and that I'm not going to ever get married.


RANDOM QUESTION:
Do people tend to treat you better if you're more attractive?
Are people actually looking at me, or am I just imagining it?
Why won't the pedo with the ugly smile stop pedosmiling at me?
Why wasn't T.O.O. at badminton this week?
Can my work please stop scheduling me to work 8 hour shifts?
How did BA manage to obtain a 96% average in this grade?

ALRIGHT GOODNIGHT,
LOVE,
LIKE,
TOLERATE,
Monica

The Monotony of Life

My life shouldn't be considered monotonous at this age, right?  Well considering I have the hardest freaking semester, and I work on the weekends when I really should be sleeping in... it's monotonous.  I'm pretty busy with a lot stuff...  and it sucks.

Luckily, my PC works again and so I bought Sims 3! Hehehe I'm such a geek.  But it's pretty cool, although not as awesome as all the advertisements make it seem.  It's hard building relationships when I can barely see the meter, or like what their relationship has manifested to...  I can't make affairs as easily!!!!

I hate physics.

Robopocalypse is the best and creepiest book ever.

I loved it.  

Physics will be the death of my average.

This grade is a ton harder than the last grade. Holy freaking crap.

I need to step it up.  

I dislike physics so much.

I wish that it wouldn't take so long for the library to get me the books I want to read.

I wish I had time to read.

I hope I didn't fail those three tests I had in one day.

I spend way too much money on shopping and unnecessary things.  Like beautiful and bamf shoes.

I want to get perfume, because I want to smell nice and be happy every time I smell it. 

I still want to get those beautiful badminton shoes.  And a new racket.

I want to save for an ipad, but that will take a while, and the temptation to spend and the shopping bliss I get is so ... hard to resist.

I think that if I got a nail buffer my nails would look quite stunning.

I'm getting that nail buffer the next time I go to the mall.

Jeans from Hollister are really comfortable, and so so soft.  I'm getting a few more pairs, then switching to something less attainable if more expensive.  Everyone has them...

My split ends are getting really gross.  I need a haircut!!!

If someone likes me, why can't they just show signs of it, like talking to me more or something instead of randomly staring at me?  It makes me uncomfortable.

This computer requires a new mouse and keyboard, because both freaking suck, to death.

Random thoughts from a not so random anymore person.

I’ll follow you for any cause
I’ll fight for you in any war
And all to say that I am yours

- Lyrics from the song, "Be the One" by Jack Penate

I Must Eat BreakFAST!  Actually LUNCH,

Monica